<p><p>Apparently its all my fault. Everything. I made you loose your job. I made you go PSYCHO. I'm the reason you're loosing your relationship with your own daughter. Yes. Maybe i did contribute to our relationship going bad, but who'd i learn that from? You. You're the one that favors the little ones. You're the one that expects me to come to you. I'm sixteen. I shouldn't be the parent in this situation. Why is my room messy? Hmm..wonder who i learned that from. Considering you're pretty much a damn hoarder. Thinking of you makes my stomach sick. And you wonder why I'm closer to other figures in my life. It's because i never had one. I have role models in my life that i would love to live with and be my mother. But I would hate myself if i was to treat my daughter like you treat me. I will HATE myself if i become like you. Like, do you care? Does it occur to you that you're making my life more miserable than it already is? That's not fair. But when we talked and argued, you pointed fingers at me. Everything was my fault.
The Complicated Life
Sunday, February 10, 2013
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
Every little thing.
Have you ever been so in love with someone, that you fall in love with the little things about them? The way they look when they are thinking, or focusing on something. The way their face lights up when they talk about something they absolutely love. The way they talk to other people, their facial expressions and their hand gestures. And just the looks they give you. The way they smile and laugh with you. The look in their eyes before they lean in to kiss you. When they run their hands down your arms and lock their fingers with yours. And oh, the goosebumps and butterflies they gave you. When they pull you into a hug and you feel all their muscles relax and yours do too, because in that moment, everything is utterly perfect and you feel so safe. And when you catch yourself looking at them, wondering what they are thinking. You are not only in love with their and personality, you're in love with their soul, every fiber of their being. And just the way they exist amazes you. It fascinates you, and you want to know every little thing about them...
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
Scary feeling
It’s scary to find someone that makes you happy. You start giving them all of your attention because they’re what makes you forget everything bad that is going on in your life. They’re the first person you want to talk to in the morning and the last one before you sleep just so you can start and end your day with a smile. It all sounds great to have that someone, but its scary to think about how easily they could just leave and take that happiness away too when they go. Its worrying to think that they're the reason for your happiness. But it takes trust. Trust to know that person won't. And that's where most relationships go wrong.